What do I want Board

So my husband's job wanted him and employees to do a My Why's board. It reminds me of the movie "The Women" when Meg Ryan's character made a "What do I want" board after Bette Midler's character asked her "What do you want?". I watched it when I was younger and I always made one, but we haven't made one lately.

So when my husband wanted to make one, we jumped at the chance again.

So the questions are, why do you go to work, what do you work for, what are your dreams, your aspirations? 

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And when it comes to asking the universe a what do I want board, you go big or you go home.

His board starts with a photo of us and our cat kid. 

Next was a house, we both decided on a certain one, something quaint, eye pleasing, and something we would be proud of. 

Next he has to have his Chevelle. 

He also aspires to get his pilot license one day. 

Next up was a vacation to the beach! And a tiny house on wheels so we can vacation anywhere.

Next up is a plan for a small plot of land, a house, garden, animals, etc. 

Our business card we put on and family. 

We both want to be on the water so a good old-fashioned sailboat is a great way to go. 

And then, you go big or you go home, a room full of cash!

I love that the company had them do this so they can remember their dreams and for others to be included in them too. 

It's all about visualizing the prize and opening your hands to the universe! 

That's why I told him we have to put the saying "Say Yes to Adventure"

Have you ever made a board like this? Even for inspiration for your own goals?

 Our board we made just up above.

And the work family's boards as well.

💖💖💖Dreams are ALWAYS a beautiful thing! 💖💖💖

I have an idea-A Bookshelf!

Okay, I love bookshelves right, but I hate that when I get one, all my collectibles get lost towards the back or I have wasted room.

Okay, so here is my idea.

Imagine a bookshelf like what Walmart sells, one of those 6-foot tall bookshelves with 5 shelves. It's about 1 foot in depth and about 2 and a half feet wide.

Now that you can imagine that, cut the bookshelf in half- Making the 1 foot in depth bookshelf 6 inches now. Now, put roller feet on the bottom with locking wheels and hinges, maybe about 5 along one side. One the other side have two to three locks. The backside, the backboard, has an extra backboard, that can slide in and out of place or the backboards can be taken off altogether.
To lock the bookshelves in place when open, a wooden dowel can be put in two locations along the middle areas to slide in place making it hard to open the bookshelf.

Now, this makes the bookshelf double on space and can close up and lock again.

I don't know, someone may have already created it, but how awesome would this be?

I love having extra space and again, I feel that 1-foot depth is just wasted, You can put your photos, collections, crystals, artwork, smaller books, all in one place!
Even sometimes, smaller homes, putting a big thing like that would be too much space, having the chance to double your space and not waste your ground area is also nice. 

If you go to make one, show me how it turns out! I really want one! And don't forget to credit my idea if they don't have one anywhere. I keep trying to convince my husband to make one,  I can totally see it in my head but have no idea how to even begin to build it from scratch.

What do you think?

Weird dreams tonight

Okay, I've been having weird dreams.

I've had to start taking melatonin again to get some sleep due to insomnia creeping up to me. Whenever I take melatonin it gives me crazy dreams, which at least it's entertaining.

Anyways, just this past night, I go to see my friends working at my favorite store, one of them is in there to get either more hours or to leave work, she is not on the clock. I go to talk to her because we have to schedule a meetup and she turns and wants to run away, but is basically making a challenge for my other friend.  

My other friend who is normally dressed up takes off her jewelry and puts on a t-shirt. I am trying to get the first friend down from the escalator, who is running up the wrong one and not going anywhere. I am starting to feel like a person trying to console their cat to come down from a tree as now I am just going to wait at the bottom instead of chase. 

2nd friend come ups and bring her back down which the 1st one wiggles out of and is now doing some weird spin move on the ground so that she is uncatchable. 

I started to realize these shenanigans and yelled at them to stop, they are friends and need to work together. They are both really nice people, one may be a bit pushy and bossy and the other may recluse and have anxiety, it can be toxic, especially working together. I seriously don't know what that dream even means. But whatever it means, I guess I need to see how they are doing soon?

Next up, Colin and I decide to move. Next thing we know, we are in Vegas???? How the hell did we even get there??? I've never been there, only been as far west as Oklahoma. We have 5000 dollars and also figured we can double that at a casino. And I am trying to contact Zak Baggins of Ghost Adventures, I want to see his museum and hopefully be friends (which in real life would still be awesome) but then I find out we are related??? And I even find the guys who are on the show Tanked because I want to work in the aquarium industry. We moved to Vegas because of all of the opportunities there. We stayed in some hotel for the time being while we were finding a house. I seriously don't know where to even begin on this dream.

Next up, we have some kittens outside, I am trying to catch them. The neighbor behind us moves, someone else moves in with a large dog and apparently, they are in a dog fighting ring, and letting the dog hurt our outdoor cats. I catch a little black and white female kitten, and bring her inside all the while Colin is outside yelling at the guy with the dog, cause we share the same woods and backyard and needs to respect what goes on here in this neighborhood. I am now on the roof alone trying to walk a wire due to all the negativity going on and that we need out of there. Colin calls the cops, they come and get me down, and arrest the dog fighter neighbor too. 

I'm all for saving animals, okay but don't harm them as practice or because it's fun, it's not right and anyone who does that should be ashamed of yourselves.

I think that is the dreams I had last night. I used to keep a dream journal and had some crazy dreams. Like one time I went to a burger joint that was run solely by gorillas, they cooked, waitressed, hosted, etc. Or another dream where Walmart gets an aquarium and Colin falls in the hammerhead shark exhibit and jump in after him to save him and we both get out of there. Apparently, there was supposed to be an attendant on duty and they weren't there to watch the area. Or going to a town where several towns collided into one. There is sooooo much more, but I won't list them here, I'll just do new dreams.

Do you get any weird dreams?

Star seed?

So I just watched a video on youtube and looked up information about Starseeds.

Here is the list of it, copied from Youtube channel-Event is Coming

Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy, feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviors, and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you!

Starseed Symptoms Due To Awakening & DNA Activation

A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.

Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.

Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can’t be there for long lengths of time and need a break. Also, more highly evolved individuals spend more time on the Earth plane, and you are highly evolving.


This copied from google- Star Seeds are beings that have experienced life elsewhere in the Universe on other planets and in non-physical dimensions other than on Earth. Star Seeds may also have had previous lifetimes on earth. There are three categories of Star Seeds as follows: A typical Star Seed may have lived 5-50 lifetimes on Earth.

Copied from Sirius Ascension- Old Soul Star Seeds have usually had hundreds of lifetimes on earth going back to the beginning of humanity and even the beginning of the planet. These are the Guardians of earth and have strong links to Sirius which is the spiritual guardian of earth and humanity. Their Life Missions are tied into the long-term evolution of earth and humanity and this is why they have willingly incarnated on earth so many times in order to fulfill these projects. They have often performed the roles of Spiritual Teachers, Shamans, Prophets, Light Workers (especially with earth ley lines and at sacred sites), Temple Guardians, Healers, all kind of leaders such Kings and Queens and as The High Priest and High Priestess. These Star Seeds hold the wisdom and spiritual knowledge of the ancients as it has been used on earth. This includes the human knowledge of astronomy, astrology, runes, numerology, certain healing modalities, light work and spiritual ceremonies. This will be the last lifetime as a human being for many of these old soul Star Seeds who are completing the cycles of lifetimes on earth and all the project and work included in these cycles. These Star Seeds have often mastered the ability to hold a balance between being grounded and being spiritually aligned. This is why they still resonate with their extraterrestrial origins even though they have lives on earth for so many lifetimes. 

Common characteristics of all Starseeds:

A deep interest in spirituality

The ability to spiritually grow rapidly when needed as if they have done this before

A realization that earth is not their true home

They feel drawn to outer space, the stars and science fiction

Personal Qualities such as being artistic, being sensitive and possessing higher consciousness

Star Seeds can have difficult and challenging lives

They sometimes have dreams or memories of places not on earth

They sometimes have experiences of physical and non-physical encounters with star guides and UFOs

They often have noticeable gifts in the areas of healing, channeling and psychic sensitivities

Alot of this makes sense! I used to feel like this all the time and still do! I know I'll have to research more on this, but how many others feel like this?

If we have been reincarnated, how many times have we met before? Do we feel more in tune with certain people or animals, even plants because of this?

It's getting late and I've had a long day, but regardless, this is all very interesting and I will read more into this.

In a way, it sounds like the Galactic Federation of Light religion, that's an interesting one. I've read on that before and some made sense as where some made me feel like this was way out there. But again, it's interesting and I'd recommend reading up on it.

What do you think about this?

Psychic Abilities, Physical and Mental Issues

Okay, first off, I've always known I've had some set of abilities. My parents had them and always told me growing up to be aware of them. I just trudged on and continued with life.

I'll get to where I was and near the end, I'll get to the abilities. Like wayfinding, to get where you are, you have to know where you've been.

It wasn't until I was 18 did they really hit me. I had some experiences before hand that made me wonder what the hell happened. But I remember being in pain, even mentally unstable and anxiety and panic attacks always looming about. Some days, I couldn't breathe. 
One time I had gotten diagnosed and prescribed for Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS). I had a pretty bad time when it started, but it didn't help being around a person that was making fun and not allowing you to do something. But it continued. I always felt fear. I always felt anxious.
I was given anti-depressants, they thought my thyroid was over active and a few days later underactive, giving me insane amounts for three months of Levothyroxine, starting at 5mg ending in 75mg. Because of that pill, I gained 60 pounds in three months. I didn't eat either, I threw up, mixed with my IBS meds, birth control, and anti-depressants, it all was a terrible mix, and I wish I could back in time to say stop.

About the time I stopped taking pills and resuming my spirituality, my parents being Wiccan and new age, I went and learned not only about herbal remedies but about my abilities as well. My mother told me about my 4th great grandfather who was extremely psychic, and that down the line, many of his grandchildren received some of his abilities. My father, a Wiccan, kind of bartered for his abilities early on and worked hard to receive them, his family rejected alot and he was a black sheep on one side. He knew there was something more. But as with my father, sometimes emotions and bitterness can overtake someone. I still have hopes he can change back to the man I loved and knew. Before he turned to drugs to enhance himself. And that happens as well, and it can ruin a person.

Alot of my family scoffed at me, that's normal, but is degrading. It was hard to rise above it, to not let their words and actions hurt me, to make me not grow and get the sunlight I so deserved and needed. What is chaos for the fly is normal for the spider. My thinking was inflicting chaos and causing turmoil but wasn't causing me harm.

My family used to own a crystal mine, I grew up being embarrassed that we sold rocks and that we didn't have real jobs. I was made to feel awful. But in reality, the ones making me feel awful was also turning me into the sheep, living in a society that is unchanging, unmoving, stagnant. They made fun of weird and loved normal, when I was weird and could not understand normal, even from a young age. Again, what is chaos for the sheep is normal for the wolf. 

I got to thinking more on it. I started accepting who I was, I am me after all, and only I can love and understand who I am. My husband has been my greatest supporter of all time. So loads of love and kudos for him. He prefers the wolf and spider and he in turn, was a black sheep of his family, kind of like how I was. 

When I was 20, I learned I was an empath, an Indian shaman in North Carolina mountains helped me. She showed me the crystals, how to help block others emotions and energies with amethyst, moonstone for increasing your own, crystals for clearing, etc. I thank her for finally putting me on the right track. Not only is it okay to have crystals or healing, they are pretty decorations as well, and it is okay to sell rocks, it is okay to not be in the norm. If I didn't have her to help me block others energies, I would've been a wreck. That time, that day, I was drowning, and wild, gasping for air.

Anyhow...I am getting off track. 

I had to tell you how I got to the point of my abilities. 

I am still learning about myself daily. As you will. 

My anxiety, for instance, was being an empath (feeling the feelings and energies of others) Even spirits.

There were times where I felt uncontrollably like a wave hit me, I'd hyperventilate, get anxious, have the panic attacks. It was all too much. 

That's when I learned about Clairsentience. Apparently, Spirit Anxiety is that psychic ability which is ALSO paired with empathic abilities.

To not only feel others, human, and spirit, but animal and buildings, and places. Having gut feelings of wrong and right, intuition, even weaving in and out of time in this ability, Clairsentience. 

I also learned about out of body experiences. Astral travel. But sometimes, you can astral travel with your other abilities.

I am a Cancer with a Sagittarius rising.  Water and Fire. In Chinese Zodiac, I was born in the year of the Golden Earth Snake. I am connected to 3 elements that also conflict with each other. But water is my favorite.

Last year when Hurricane Matthew was around, right before it hit land, I could hear whales, their song, the peaceful tunes, and it was dead quiet in my house. I can hear the soothing waves and feel the gentle movements. Then when the hurricane hit land, chaos with the beauty. I could feel the pain, the tremors, I could still hear the whales and their song, peaceful, but now that water hitting land, the storm. 

Apparently, I was out of it for over an hour. My husband trying to get me to snap back. My eyes were white. I was not prepared for this. My dad used to astral travel, he tried showing me or at least communicate with me on what to do, he told me there would be a time when it would choose me. 

When you open your spirit to astral travel, ou are steps away from becoming whole, but you have to harness these abilities, you can not let it overtake you.

Same with Empath and Clairsentience.

They will make you feel all torn up, and it comes in waves. When you are not opening yourself or attempting to communicate with your abilities and spirit, it can raise some issues. 

I was so desperate for anything, to feel special, that I overlooked alot of things. Many are still in this mode, but many are still new and learning. 

For me, and for many others, Spirit Anxiety feels a lot like sudden onset anxiety - and it can lead many mediums to see their gifts/abilities as a psychological disorder, and not part of a greater gift.  

The last ability I have noticed was something a little darker. You will always have an ability you do not like or not talk about or reject. 

Rejecting something is rejecting yourself.

I have my spirit and then I have what I can alter ego or dark spirit. Unaware of from a young age, these abilities can perform your own poltergeist can alter things to harm others. I've discussed this with some other psychics and shamans. It's interesting. Apparently, this does show in children but wears off when they grow up. 

Mine didn't wear off. Instead, now I use that part of myself that can harm others to protect myself. Some who can see spirits can see my "dark shadow" lingering, it's even shown up in an aura photo. 

One time I was working and this man was harming me, not physically, but psychically. I had made too much noise and this customer was extremely unstable and asked for quiet. Hard to ask for quiet when you work in a coffee shop and need the use or machines, blenders, and microwaves. Anyways, I was making a frappuccino, and my arm felt like it was on fire and my heart was hurting. I couldn't explain why and nothing looked wrong, all of the sudden a dark shroud, which was me, enveloped me was a ward, protective bubble, and I followed where the pain was coming from, like a string. The man was standing in front of the pastry case, staring at me with a horrible deadly look. I told him to leave once he realized I could stop his gifts. I then wished something would happen to show him not to mess with me again. 

That was a wrong move. He had a wreck right in front of my work, 20 feet out the door. He had to go to the hospital and so did the other person. He sped out of the parking lot and ended up totaling his sedan, as an SUV hit him head on.  I had wished for him to be harmed. And my dark spirit did the job within minutes.

I became fearful of that power for a long time.

But now, when spirits try to attach themselves to me, I can use it to shield myself, as much as shielding others. 

The crystals can only help so much, I had to learn how to defend myself, make myself a shield. The crystals helped show me the way and what needed work in my defenses, what was weak.

Again, we all have this dark spirit. But it wears off and people forget how to use it. 

Nothing is wrong in using crystals, their energies are great and wonderful. 

But there comes a time when you have to step back and let your energy rise and take over. You will still have the crystals to help when you feel weakened. 

Due to all my excess crystals and work I've done for myself and my husband, I've wanted to help others. 

I went ahead and became an ordained minister, just so I can become a spiritual advisor, a priestess of my own design.

I want to help others re-work themselves, let the crystals lay on them and show them the way, to help them raise themselves.

I learned alot over the years and still learning. But there is not any reason why I can't help others through my experience. 

If you have any questions, please feel free to comment below.