Self Love and Putting Yourself Down

Hello there!

I just had a slight issue. 

For starters, I am trying to find and create myself again. I used to love creating and drawing.  So I am taking some minutes to draw a thing here, a thing there. Trying to combine passions.  I've been doing little colored pencil works and putting it through my photoshop and some of my own photography to make it look cool and weird. Trying to figure stuff out while being comfortable with myself.

But I just had to stop myself just now.

I was attempting to force myself to be in a drawing creative mood. The reason why I stopped myself was because I told myself it looked stupid. 

I'll attempt to create again when the mood strikes, so I don't need to put myself down again.

I wanted to write about this because it is important. 

So many others put themselves down, so many others don't give themselves a chance. So many stop and hesitate. 

And then the response from the hesitation becomes this-"This Is Stupid"

Now that is just silly, don't you agree?

We are one with ourselves, we have the world fighting us on opinions and appearances, yet we are our greatest enemy? 

I used to continue on with something until it didn't feel stupid, but then I would be enraged and angry because I spent so long on it and it wasn't even worth it in the end. 

The anger was not worth my energy.

I am writing this to say, Love who you are. Respect Who You Are. Be Kind to Who You Are.

I am a person that always lifts others up, I don't like drama, nor tearing others down. Yet, I make my own drama, I put myself down, I cry because I don't feel pretty, I am angry because I don't feel anyone there to lift myself up. 

I always said I loved myself, but that always felt selfish and narcissistic. That I should help, heal, and love others.

Yet because of those issues, I am gaslighting my own self. 

I am sure others feel this way!

I am after changing my own ways, if I would not put down someone else, then I should not put myself down either.

Anyways, I am just dropping this here because it was important for me to remember and for others to read and hear.