Why is it awkward seeing family again? People you grew up with and many years pass and you can see each other almost everyday now.
I know people's lives move forward and everyone is different and has different attention spans. It's just sad when I am making attempts to hang out or when I ask for us to go see a movie, things we used to do together all the time, the other doesn't respond or has excuses, or they now make fun of things.
If someone is making an attempt to be in your life, why do you back away? I never thought we did anything wrong or argued. I get that maybe our relationship may be casual now, that I can come over and just sit on a couch for an hour and watch a movie while they are on the computer completely engrossed in what they are doing and they get sad to see you leave. Yet if it were anyone else, they'd be showing them their new stuff, paying attention, sitting down and talking to them. I'm starting to have a connection more to their animals than themselves. At least they are excited to see me.
Yet when they make attempts to hang out or something, I'm down for it, cause they are my family and friend, but if I say no, it turns into an argument, yet if it were reversed and I argue to them like they do to make me feel bad and guilty or when they make fun of the things I like or want to do, they can't handle it and tell me not to pressure them and that I'm stupid for making fun of their stuff.
I don't mind hanging out with them and I know people change, it's just makes me think is all.
When someone is making an attempt to even try to hang out with you and you are on good terms but you don't even bother or let the thought cross your mind as a casual passing thought, what does that say about your character?
I don't know, maybe I'm being bitchy, but it just kinda irks me is all. If I were to not pay them any mind when they are here, they just leave, but if I were to do the same, they are insulted or sad.
I don't want to treat them like they treat me, because it really does leave a sour taste to me, but I may have to. It just feels like they are pushing me away, but when I ask them, they say they aren't.
I don't know.
I mean I ask them for my birthday to go to a movie with me, they can't, okay, then when a new movie that we both have been talking about and he said he'd see it with me, he's already seen it now and said it sucked. I was really looking forward to it and they don't even care. I know they have their own life and I've my own, maybe it'd be easier to move away again, we had an easier relationship then.
I've never thought of myself as a narcissist, and I know after reading this you may think me one, but they think of every one else, except me. Maybe it's good that I don't really have any ties to this town, after September 17th, the day I have a small day show to sell some goods, maybe I should look for another town or state. Take what I can fit in a small uhaul, take my husband, cat, and myself and just go. I'm tired of being treated second hand and looked down on.
